May 29, 1999
So, so many changes to report since my last entry. Not with my weight. Unfortunately, I'm still bobbing around the 170 mark and that's really okay with me right now. I have much bigger stuff going on.
I'll be moving over the weekend of the 11th. I'm so very excited. My new place is a bachelor pad, complete with hotplate and dorm fridge. It's tiny, but it's clean, safe, beautiful, and exactly where I want to live. Miracle Mile is the museum district near the LaBrea Tar Pits. The address is LA, but everyone calls it "Beverly Hills Adjacent". I find that so funny!
Anyway, I'm not only leaving The Valley and my roommate, but also my full-time job. I'm going to be working one day a week in Maria's office and then doing my freelance computer consulting and (hopefully) some hand modeling. The rest of my time will be devoted to acting class, working out, and preparing for the business end of Show Biz. Oh, and of course, there's karaoke every week. Can't forget about that!
The big news on the acting front is this: our TheatreSports scrimmage was 17 May and I got promoted to the next level! Yea! The audience was filled with the friends and families of my classmates and all my sweet friends came to show their support. It felt so good to be up and performing again (after a LONG absence from the stage) and even better to be doing it in front of people I love and trust and respect... and all without a script! I love improv! It's very freeing.
So, the next two weeks will be filled with packing and planning then shopping for some furniture (since I sold everything back in Athens). Thank God for good credit! Ikea, here I come!
Email address stays the same, and I'll probably get better about checking it, once I'm in my own place. So, keep in touch and know that I am loving my life right now, as it is filled with new adventures and lots of supportive, wonderful people.
Posted by bonnie at 4:55 PM
May 5, 1999
Cinco de Mayo
Well, I thought I was brave and courageous and ready to conquer things. Turns out I'm just as scared as ever. Plus homesick. So, here I sit, belly swollen from all the chocolate I've ingested, and facing another dreaded weigh-in tomorrow. I should be proud of having lost 36 lbs. and hanging out at this weight for 2 months. Instead, I'm so mad at myself for not continuing toward my goal weight. Why can I not just love myself right now, as I am, and trust that everything will work out? What am I so afraid of? Why does this have to be so hard? I'd be really pissed if it weren't for the fact that almost EVERY woman faces this issue. At least I know I'm not alone. Sure feels that way sometimes, though. At other times, I'm enjoying singing with my friends, being consistently funny in my acting class, and dining in chi-chi restaurants that you hear about in movies. Feels like a fairy tale... until I'm too fat to go to the ball.
Posted by bonnie at 4:54 PM